HOLD YOUR HEAD HIGH HEAVY HEART

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okay well i know this over used but I cant get my head around this girl. I have tried everything I tired dating others, I tried avoiding, ive tries spells/magic and medetation. No matter what I do this girl keeps comming back to mind and I cant stop thing about her. Ive talked to her a few times and we both dont want to ruin the friendship we have, but part of me still wants it to be more. Now shes dating another guy 2nd one this school year and its the first one I was actual jealous off. Tomorrow is the last day of school before we head off for summer, then were back for the last year and im afriade I might never see her again. She has helped me so much like she got me to quit e/acid/weed/drinking to excess/smoking and cutting.......and with all that before meeting her I prayed and dreamt off someone simillar and it feels like shes the sign i was waiting for my personal guardian angle ect. Yet I dont know how to tell her I still feel this way. With all this going on my parents have no idea im bi cause i havent told them yet and ive been keeping it secret for 6yrs because of my moms religion and my dad well never understanding me. My parents want me to get into medicen and even threatned not to pay for culinar and photography school which i really want to do. I feel lost and that i might even start again though part of me wants to majority of dosnt and is tryn to hold back

Okay yeah its still here, but latley there has not been any bands therapy advice last one was like back in the begging of march or so whats up?

You have been gone such a short time
Of my heart this is a crime
My feelings seem to uncontrollably grow
What I can do about them, I do not know

For hours we sit and talk
I dream of taking a long slow walk
Through the hills, along the beach
With you in arms reach

To have you in my arms to hold and caress
Would relieve all earthly problems and stress
Whilst i am running my fingers through your hair
I would be floating, lighter than air

But this is only a dream
A hope for it to happen is extreme
I will continue on as I have to date

you're under the age of 13...you shouldnt even read this


and if you do, you should not repost this.


Just because you were born in '97 doesn't mean you're a 90's kid.


It's not like you could remember the original Simpsons. I am sorry but three conscious years of the 90's just wont cut it.


You're a 90's kid if:


You can finish this [ice ice _ _ _ _ ]


You remember watching:
-Doug
-Ren & Stimpy
-Pinky and the Brain
-AAAAAAAH Real Monsters!
-Rockos modern Life.
-Gargoils


You've ever ended a sentence with the word "PSYCHE!"


You just cant resist finishing this . . . "Iiiiiiin west philidelphia born and raised . . ."


You remember:
-LEGENDS OF THE HIDDEN TEMPLE!!!
-Step by Step
-Family Matters!!!
-Dinosaurs
-Boy Meets World!!!!
-Wild and Crazy Kids

You remember when it was actually worth getting up early
on a Saturday to watch cartoons.


You got super excited when it was Oregon Trail day in computer class at school.


You remember reading "Goosebumps"


You took plastic cartoon lunch boxes to school.


You still get the urge to say "NOT" after (almost) every sentence . . . not


when everyhting was settled by:
-rock paper scissors or
-bubble gum bubble gum in a dish or
-daddy had a donkey inky binky bonky.
-skunk in the barn yard
-ms. mary mack
-big mac a tea a tea

when cops and robbers was a daily activity.


when we played Hide and go seek until our legs grew numb.


when we used to obey our parents


You used to listen to the radio all day long just to record your FAVORITE song of ALL time.


"Where in the World is Carmen San Diego?" was both a game and a TV game show.


Captain Planet. He's a Hero.


You knew that Kimberly, the pink ranger, and Tommy, the green ranger, were meant to be together.


You remember when Super Nintendos and Sega Genisis became popular.


You always wanted to send in a tape to America's Funniest Home Videos . . . but never taped anything funny.


You remember watching Home Alone 1, 2 , and 3 . . . and tried to pull the pranks on "intruders"


You remember watching:
-The Magic School Bus
-Wishbone
-Reading Rainbow
-and Ghostwriter on PBS


You remember when Yo-Yos were cool.


You remember those Where's Waldo books.


You remember eating Warheads.


You remember watching:
-the 1st Batman
-Aladdin
-Ninja Turtles
-Animporphs
-ghost busters


you remember watching...
-my little pony tails
-gummi bears
-tail spin
-goof troop
-chip n' dail rescue rangers


You remember Ring Pops.


You remember drinking Surge, and Tang.


If you remember when every thing was "da BOMB!"


When they made the new lunchables so that you could make pizza AND tacos.


You remember boom boxes vs. cd players.


Making those little paper fortune cookie things, and then predicting your life with them.


You played and/or collected "Pogs" :)


You had at least one Tamagotchi, GigaPet, or Nano and brought it everywhere.


one word. . . . . . . . Furbies.


You haven't always had a computer, and it was cool to have the internet.


And Windows 95 was the best.


You watched the original cartoons of Rugrats, Power Rangers, and Ninja Turtles. "Cowabunga!"


Michael Jordan was a king.


YIKES pencils and erasers were the stuff!


All your school supplies were "Lisa Frank" brand.


You remember when the new Beanie Babies and Talking Elmo were always sold out


You collected those Beanie Babies.


Carebears


Gak was the coolest stuff invented.


Lambchop's song never ended.


The old dollar bills.


Silver dollars, which were cool to have.


Everyone watched the WB and yelled at people who interupred them.


You collected all the Troll dolls


If you even know what an original walkman is.


You remember wanting to sit on the orange Nickelodeon couch.


You've gotten creeped out by "Are You Afraid of the Dark?"


You know the Macarena by heart.


"Talk to the hand" . . . enough said


You always said, "Then why don't you marry it!"


You went to McDonald's to play in the playplace.


You remember playing on merry go rounds at the playground.


Before the MySpace frenzy . . .


Before the Internet & text messaging . . .


Before Sidekicks & iPods . . .


Before MIKE JONES . . .


Before PlayStation2 or X-BOX . . .


Before Spongebob . . .


Back when you put off the 5 hours of homework you had every night.


When light up sneakers were cool.


When you rented VHS tapes, not DVDs.


When gas was $0.95 a gallon & Caller ID was a new thing.


When we recorded
stuff on VCRs.


When we called the radio station to request songs to hear off of our walkman.


When checking out drawing books and that one book about the rainbow fish from the library was THE cool thing to do.


You had slap bracelets!


Way back.


Before we realized all this would eventually disappear.


Who would have thought you'd miss the 90's so much!!!!!


Post this in your bulletin if you remember these days . . . .


Post with the year you were born

So my gf back today it was great but it felt like something has changed

im leavn in a week and i know i wont see her untill i grduate if not later

what should i do

Yeah leaving in 9 days

no one ever really understands

me anymore and i miss my gf i havent

seen her in 3 weeks cause shes out of town

no one msgs me on buzznet im just leave for

a while music is my only friend

so yeah 11 days till i leave there still too much going on and i need

to figure who is really there for me and the ppl that have been there fore

me so far no matter what thanks you guys mean the world to me and

im sorry for anyshit i caused u Love and ill be BACK

So yeah im leaving in 13 days to finsh 2 yrs of high school in Italy

Obviously its gona be exciting. But how can it be with all this pain im suffering

rite now which will never leave me and im leavn the one person who belives in me

still AMBER<3 I love you to death and no matter how far away you are you will always be

in my heart i dont know what i would have done without you for the rest of you i hope u

suffer as much as u made me suffer

Rite Now I just got home from over 12 hours of wrk dont ask

and my mom just freaked out at me for hell knows what i did

honestly its been going on too long and everytime it happenes it feels

as 1000 knives just perice me in the back I need sum1 to hold me in their

arms so i can feel safe for once I rather be dead rite now then live in this pain

No one understands me, everyone is turning their back

on me just because i opened up that im BI and everyones

sayn im joke mabey they are right mabey i am i held on for

so long and now im just slipping away the only thing i have left

is my music and its the only thing thats keeping me going I wish

I could just lose my life in this darkness.

damn this life hurts to much for once i felt safe with this special girl now

out of no where she dosent want to tlk to me anymore for what the hell

i did i dont know now its back to being alone :(

:

I'll kill any fucker who does this to my girl or any girl [expecially chelsea, no one touches her like that, or their face is mine]

Message:

Body: Guy:"Lets have sex right now." Girl: "Can we do what?" Guy: "You know, can I be your first, finally?" Girl: "Um.....no." Guy: "Why?" Girl: "Because, 1. you have a girlfriend, who happens to be my friend......." Guy: "So, if you don't tell, I won't tell." Girl: "Besides that, I'm waiting for someone special. Someone that I want to be with for the rest of my life to be my first." Guy: "I'm not special to you?" Girl: "You're my friend. That's all." Guy: looks forward and keeps driving. 5 minutes pass....... Guy: starts to run his hand up the girl's thigh. Girl: moves his hand, "Don't touch me.". Guy: tries to kiss her. Girl: screams, "Would you stop." Guy: continues trying. Girl: moves to the back seat Guy: parks on an abandoned street and gets in the backseat with the girl. Starts to kiss her. Girl: pushes him off and scoots over, "Please, don't do this." Guy: "Don't do what, I know you want it, I can see it in your eyes." Moves over to her and starts to unbutton her pants. Girl: pushes him harder and says, "No, don't." Guy: getting aggravated, punches her and tells her to stop "playing hard to get". Girl: crying, continues to fight. Guy: punches her harder, pulls her pants off, and holds her down. Girl: screams as he penetrates her, "NO, please don't do this to me!" Guy: puts his hand over her mouth. An hour passes......... Guy: pulls back and wipes himself off. Girl: sits on the corner of the seat, crying. Guy: looks at her and says, "You better not tell anybody about this. If you're really my friend, you won't tell anybody about this. You know I love you." He reaches out his hand to touch her cheek. Girl: pulls back, "Just take me home, now." Guy: says, "Alright." Gets in the front seat and drives her home. 2 months later......... Girl: "Doctor, what's wrong with me. I haven't had my time of the month in 2 months." Doctor: looks at her, "You haven't been having your "time" for a reason." Girl: looks at him and says, "Why?" dreading the answer that she was sure to receive. Doctor: "You are pregnant." Girl: faints. The story gets out that she is pregnant, and people start looking to the Guy. He claims that it isn't his because she was sleeping with every guy in the school(which was a lie). He goes to her and tells her, "I'm telling you, if you lie to people and say that I raped you, I'll kill you." The Girl is completely devastated. First, he took her virginity and got her pregnant....then he lied about it. So completely depressed......the girl commits suicide by drug overdose....... Girls, if this story touched you, repost it as "No means no asshole" Guys, if this story pisses you off, repost it as "I'll kill any fucker who does this to my girl or any girl" Well the way I see it if you open and read this and DON"T REPOST this you must be for rape?

The sky the color
Of dried blood, the weary sun
Drifts below my horizon
To another waking one
To greet another weary people,
Another sandpaper day.

How little I envy
You, shrinking orb,
Your eternal progression
On your chafing, circadian course.
Daily you reiterate the journey
You have made a thousand, arduous times
And must make
A thousand, arduous times more.

You trek dismally onward,
Searingly conspicuous,
Through the vulgar sky.
Disrobed before the world,
You stare dismally downward
With a vacant gaze of blanched light.

Ah, how I pity you
As I watch you rise, cheerless,
Each still, somber morning
And descend in heavyhearted grace
Every ashen night.
I see you submerged
In the chilling ocean
And know you wish you
Could drown.

How grateful I am
For night’s shadow
And life’s brevity.
How thankful
For revival
And ultimate escape.

[1] Whats your current Name?:
[2] Are we very closer than we were 2 weeks ago?
[3] What do you think of me?:
[4] Do you fancy me?:
[5] Would u kiss me?
[6] Would you date me?:
[7] Describe me in 3 words?:
[8] If u Had Me for 30 Mins wat would you do with me?
[9] What was ur first impression of me?:
[10] Do u still think the same of me?
[11] What do I Remind you of?
[12] If you could give me anything in the world what would it be?:
[13] How well do you know me? :
[14] What do u like best about me?:
[15] Ever wanted 2 tell me something u couldn't cuz ur a wimp JK...but seriously?:
[16] Could you ever love me?
[17] Give me a nickname and explain why u would call me that?:
[18] Are u gona put this on ur blog and see wat i say bout you?:
[19] Anything to say before u go?:
[20]... k bye

Right now I feeln kind of down but i wasnt earlier I think its just cause im movn soon and am leaving all my friends ill miss them tonz